What I'm feeling now....

......quoted from Stephenie Meyer.

"To anyone watching me, there would be no change. But for me, as I struggled to keep the screams and thrashing locked up inside my body, where they couldn’t hurt anyone else, it felt like I’d gone from being tied to the stake as I burned, to gripping that stake to hold myself in the fire." (Breaking Dawn)

That's my resolution. I'm not going to scream anymore.